Spirtually Clumsy

I find myself on a personal journey filled with misconceptions and misunderstandings...all on my part. As I strive to understand God's desire for my life, I find that I become spiritually clumsy in my dealings with him. There seems to be a simplicity in His desires for me that either elude me, or seem too obvious to possibly be correct. Never in my life have I been this much into His word, and never have I had this deep and active a prayer life, and yet, every step I take does not seem to bring me closer to my goal. If anything, each step seems to show me how much further I have to go...not how much closer I am getting.

I am ultiamtely however, encouraged, for His word says that He will never leave me or forsake me. The distance is in me ... not in Him. He is right here...patient, kind and loving, and all I need to do is learn to rest...open my eyes... and abide. I WILL learn to stand. I WILL learn to walk, and then...oh my...what a journey I will take.